if***

they say that almost all the questions have answers, some questions are answered by questions, a few questions are intended as an answer to a question that has not been raised yet, but a question that never ends is if.....

some look for answers due to heartache
some for clarification
others are simply for emphasis...

but what if....
this questions are just a momentary pause for where we are and where were going
what if....
we are but another existence to be vanquished
what if...
yes
what if...
the question that never ends

so do i...
i have this if...

if i change
would you accept,
if i turn into someone you hate
would you still be there
if i fall
will i find you in the bottom of the hole
if i mock you
would you still talk to me
if i defy you
would you hate me
if i curse you
would you wish good things for me
if i leave you
would you go anywhere
if i came back
would i still find you there
if i hurt you
would you still be my beacon of light
if i lie to you
can you still trust me
if i disappear
would you miss me
if i suddenly show up
would you greet me and say goodbye
if i continue to hurt
would you continue hearing me out
if i drive you away
would you stay
if i say i love you more than myself
would you take advantage of my weakness
if i'm lost for words
would you dare fill the empty space in between
if...
only if...
if i were there
would you be beside me
if i were your neighbor
would we be more than friends
if i were just a stranger
(the fact that i am)
would you still talk to me
if i were your classmate
would you even notice me
if,..
if....
well it's not...so live with it.