drifitng

not long enough do i remember
the memory that was stuck on my head
your face
your voice
everything seems so vivid
yet it seems to be slowly diminishing
im bitter cos i dont want it to fade
i dont want to ever lose that
the very thing i keep
the very something i hold close in my heart
you.....
but i feel like i'm drifting away
and i just wanna cry when i realize that it is
drifting....
but why is it that every time someone comes close
i push them away
or i get pushed away
then i stop to care
don't ever wanna hurt or be hurt again
i'd choose to drift
yes
just drift away
to the memories of the past
just drifting away to the shadows of many
i wanna stay where i am
therefore i must drift away
yes im running away from this so called life
yes i may run away from this reality
but i am my own, and i'll stick with it...
just drifting, i'll let time pass while i fade with time in memorial
i love you
hear it echo in the halls of your perfect little world
no better explanation but the fact that i am walking my path stumbling upon this void of life
wondering why
why do we have to be away