guardian

lying on my bed, grasping for the sheets of thy cradle, i turned the other cheek and hold my pillow close to me, slowly closing my eyes but there are too many things running through my head, the voice seems to echo in my very ear.

i hate you....

i'll never talk to you again....

goodbye....

i asked myself, what if?...what if i didn't say those things, what if i didn't come near, now all that's left is for me to grind my own teeth and feel deep remorse for what i've done, was it wrong?, was it wrong to be happy?, and i close my eyes and hope that everything would all go away.

in my deep sleep, i awaken half dead and alive, i was in my dream, separating from my body, i stood up looked around, wandered and i heard a sound, footsteps coming closer and closer......thoughts begun to spur, who is it?, what does he want?, what is going to happen?, i peeked outside the door, i saw a vague figure going up the stair case.....

my dear, my dear
don't fret
i'm gonna end your suffering
i'm going to take your pain away
let me help you with your troubles
don't hide from me my dear
for i will comfort you
and give you your answers.

i looked at him with fear and doubt, stood up and climbed my window sill, i looked down at the empty space, seeing nothing but darkness, not a pindrop can be heard...[]

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i looked back at him, he shot me in the heart, i felt empty i didn't feel pain, not a single glitch of nervous reaction, i held my hand in my chest wondering if it was real, i saw blood, therefore it was real....

i fell into the dark, fell so deep down, i was waiting for my death, yes, death for i fell from my window sill, i waited and waited, but nothing, and then.....bam......i crashed into this bus, and i opened my eyes, i saw chaos, i saw nothing but chaos, even my mind is in chaos for i dont know what is happening around me, for i dont know why i am still able to walk, but the point there is, why am i still alive, or am i?.....

i stood up and suddenly heard someone fell from the sky, it was him, the very person i was running away from, i dont even know why i am running away from him, even though he assured me of this so called security, but i wasn't assured of him, so when i saw him fall, i started running, but it seems like im too slow.....

oh why, oh why am i left for this horrible place, why me
what do you want from me?, can't you just let me go