i found this text while i was gaming, i find it truthful for my circumstances.


As I look into your eyes
I can't seem to look away
I get lost into the moment
Each and every day

You thought I didn't like you
You thought that I moved on
But to tell you the total truth...
My feelings aren't gone

I'm still here, still waiting
For us to finally be
I'll stay here for as long as it takes
For you to be with me

I'm still here inside your heart
I'll never give up on you
You'll never find anyone else
Who loves you like I do

I'm still here just waiting
For you to finally realize
I'm still here waiting for you to see me
How I see you through my eyes

failed internet connect

wrecked dreams
vague ambitions
all i wanna do is damn play

im tired of people talking to me like i need redemption
talking to me like i need to be back with you
well no, i have had enough of bullshit piling up while you mock my decision

i see you've moved on, im not happy, in fact im not contented
i had this dream, and i think i still pretend that im in it
that im the one that makes you happy, but no.

that's not the circumstances at hand
why?
its simple, an ample belief of the system will lead me nowhere

but the very fact is, i am going nowhere
fuck the system, i am just plain tired of you fooling around
so i wanna see how you are without me, you seem better

this is the fact dear
i need'nt prove anything to anyone not even me
all i wanted to know is, was it real?

well hey it was real, it "is" real
still getting kicked by reality every morning but hey
i think i found my light, plus purpose points for me

you werent there when i needed you
so why expect more from you

note:abi talking to the desktop

(see how insane i became)

i built a castle out of a sand
and i saw it washed away
and when i tried to save a few
all i had was sand in my toes

i built my dreams out of a box
but the box wasn't so new
i flipped and turned it around
and i realized there was nothing i can do

it was nothing more than an apparition
something i can never have
but i knew when i built my life around you
that's something worth to have

but i didn't believed enough in fairy tales
and i never thought they exist
so i turned my back on one thing
that one thing i can never have again

i once again built a castle on the shore
and never managed to see it done
but i believe that my dreams were real
and that one thing i will and do feel.

saka nalang

alam ko naman na hindi ako sasaya tulad nuon
pero susubukan ko
susubukan ko kasi alam ko na hindi na tayo pwede
oo, mahal kita, sobra sobra pa kesa sa ginawa ko para sa iba
pero, sobrang mahal kita
gusto ko masaya ka, kulang ako para sayo
alam ko yun
kulang ako dahil sa distansya na ito
alam ko rin yun
gusto ko, sumaya ka ng hindi nasasaktan
oo, masakit ngayon, pero kapag tumagal mawawala din yan
alam ko, hindi ko maloloko sarili ko
oo, mahal na mahal parin kita, pero hanggang doon nalang
sana mahanap mo iyong tunay na kasiyahan
huwag ka mag-alala kung tingin mo wala ng nakakaalala sayo, nandito lang ako
pero hindi ko na pwedeng iparamdam pa sayo kung gaano kita kamahal
kasi sobrang sakit na binigay ko kaya, dito nalang ako sa malayo
malayo sayo, wala sa buhay mo
siguro saka nalang
saka ko nalang ulit ipaparamdam pagmamahal ko sayo
sa kabilang buhay.