behind

im left behind unable to grasp things fast with the phase, and i wonder
left wondering......what if

i know i have the will to
but the circumstances wont allow
as far as i can analyze the situtation
things are out of my leage at this time
my opinion wont matter
my feelings wont affect anything
and my decision wont change the scenario
did i even matter at all
you said those words
they were blown away by the slight change of the wind
what happened
you dont have to answer
i understand
you dont have to ponder
i have accepted everything
even before you said let go
i realized something was wrong
i dont push people away for no reason
im not numb
i can feel
and i know we were drifting
and i wanted to see if you'd stick around
i guess not all of us are that strong
im aware of my flaws
somehow your thought about me is that im ideal
from the very beginning i told you i wasnt
i made it clear that it's better to stay away
now look at what you've done
you made me feel again and i broke your heart
im sorry
if i made you doubt and think about what you got into
im sorry
im not good enough for you

i wish you all the good things in life, your a good person you deserve someone better and we both know that, hope you wont be a stranger.