tears

when i heard him say those hurting words, tears fell down my face, i was taking a two part quiz and i had a lot in my mind.

i wondered.

i asked.

i wanted to know.

how can he say those words without hesitation
yes you're not degrading my mother
but for someone you claimed to love
you allow such words
and to think they came from you
how can you say those words without any hesitation
didn't you realize you haven't heard the whole story yet?
how can you even say those words
i think nothing bad of you
i already took all the blame
nuff said!
it is my fault
so why can't you just let it go
i admitted it as my fault
why do you have to digress me like that
you push me
and you put me to the ground
you spat on my face
and you kicked me when i am down
you stone me
and now my spirit's dead
i wont blame you
not now
why do you have to make it to an issue
you don't have to worry on what i've become
you don't have to worry if i'll turn into them, because i wont
i know in my heart i wont
i know through my personality i wont
and you're not me to say i will
so shut the fuck up because you're not me
you don't have to worry because i don't say anything bad about you
i praise you
i adore you
i upraise you
you of the gentle hand that took care of me while i was sick
you of the gentle face that cried when i was fading
you of the gentle voice that spoke through the darkness
and if you ask how i cried when i read those things
do you remember the night
that night when we first made a never ending promise
that's how hard i cried
i wasn't ashamed to cry infront of the class
i was fine...
but i couldn't bear it anymore
that i have to shut down.
just shut down
this tears i still show
will never go.