goodnight

.....there goes everything i had.....
now, im facing everything im about to have.

slippers in the sand

i always thought i leave a mark
my sign
my very own
my identity
a part of me
something i share
and every little thing i give
in the past few days
i realized you cant always leave a part of you
not behind
not even a memory to someone
because that'll just make things worst
i enjoyed your company too much
i forgot how it is to be alone
i enjoyed every passing time
that all i do is relive them
we shared some dreams
and killed some hopes
but those time spent with you
were unforgettable and regret-free
im trying, i'm trying real hard
and i know i wont make it
so instead
i'll just have to accept
i leave a big chunk of me
i'll leave it behind
i'll let the busy crowd
or the water in the shore
just take it away
just so you know
i was there
just so you know
we were there.
together
and forever
is not gone.

everyday, i wake up
i dry up last night's tears
and smile
who am i kidding
i can't hide to myself
that it is and was a sad episode of my life
but....
i am me
and i'm living up for another better day

i have seen better days

what now?

where do i go
where do i start
i dont know
well maybe you can help
so what now??

i lost site of everything
well not really everything
but close to it
in fact almost anything

it is pretty hard to actually change
change from someone you've become for someone
to someone you need to be for yourself
it is...hard

i know how to love
i do
just that....
i procrastinated, then it failed.

bleh

suffering
from
severe
lack
of
gag
reflex


doesn't
give
a
fuck

stone cold

i heard some scratches on the wall
fading little
by little...
i put my ear closer to the distinct source
and i closed my eyes.....

i remember this sound
i felt something like this before
when i looked into his eyes
i was scared
confused....

that night i looked into his eyes
was the night i felt apathy inside of me
i felt anger
prejudice, fear, hate,sadness,
but most of all, i was lost...

that night i lost my little spark
i could'nt find a reason
could'nt find a cause
you turned your back
and walked away...

i could'nt sleep
tears keep falling
what was it you made me feel
it feels.......

touch

i wanna feel your touch
i wanna feel your warmth around me
hold me tight
hold me close
want me near
tell me you need me

i am but whoring for your attention
where have you been
all my life
where have you been

i wanna be close to you
holding you
hugging you
looking at you
i wanna be with you

and when you say you love me
and when you say you care
the more i wish i was close to you
the more i wish i was there

and when you look me in the eye
and when you say those words
i wanna listen to all you have to say
what you have to say to me everyday

the more we talk
the more i get to know you
i get closer
and closer, yet so far away.

stow away

i wanna run away to a place
a place where i decided to put my heart
a place where i'd actually live
close to you, i'd run away from here.