white wash

ink blot
another page has turned,
another chapter that's starting,
and another life to live.

i throw the piece of paper because the ink blot
its messy its dirty
but that piece of paper holds so much that i had to keep it away
for some reason of looking back into details

a piece of scrap paper means a lot
it's the start of everything wonderful
and yet the product of a chaotic mind
but still beautiful

i seek for certain words to fit in
but what do i have here
an ink blot
i tried to wash it away and erase, but alas! i give up

a white lie is a white lie
but where would my lie be classified to
i guess....its not a lie at all
i laughed.

i looked at those eyes
behold, the eyes that holds nothing
they're so empty i dont know what to think
and i dont know what to ask

if i can erase all those pain
if i can erase that tiny blot
then its pure again
if only i can wash it all off.

i think

i want to run away
away as possible from this place
far from everyone i know
far from anyone that i recognize

i made a bucket list
i just want my great escape
if i can find myself a so called home
then i know i should be just fine

but alas
i have no more home
because i chose this path
if i can just run away and forget all this

i want to go somewhere
someone take me somewhere
far from here
i am confused

i know i had it all
where is my all
it's gone
depreciated

i want to go back
but where will i start
i want to look back
but what's to look at

i am depressed
this is depressing
am i depressing?
im mumbling...

i think im gone
will anyone remember me
would anyone still stare
would you look me in the eye. guess not

ZOMFG I HAVE A FRIEND

so sup buddie
your like wow ooh hey its artie, :D
so cheah i'm writing this to acknowledge that your a zomfgwtfbff xD lol

well it's been a long time since i've known you and you nosy carebear has and is always a good friend whenever i need a pop up hello funny friend that i can actually talk to in both troublesome and easy going days.

:3 you're a really nice guy and im doing this for the credit of being a good friend towards that nice guy xP
well anyway thank you for the company whenever i need it, you respond plox.

so euhmm i just wanted to TY by writing this ty note and i want jou to know that if in any case you need someone to be of any help just ask HOKAI?

I THINK I AM

just happens.

every time, all the time i feel like i'm flying highb
something just holds me back, inside of me i die
every time i try and fall in love
just every time i do, i always end up to have to prove.

every time i think about you
and every time i think i do
i always come up with thoughts of things i never did
and i wonder if ever i am one of those you want to get rid.

and when you look at me with those eyes with tears
i see no trace of fear
i'm tired of make believe and pretends
your no lover, no longer my friend.

you lied and lied and tried to turn my head around
and yet i cant ask myself why i have to take you back every time
if this is what it means to love someone, then i dont know if love is fun at all
everything i thought about us, just went pass through us

when i gave you my heart, i gave you my trust
it was'nt always this way
love did'nt have to mean that we would always go on a bump
it's the time when every little thing mattered.