because i can

i thought i lost it
i thought i'd be gone
i thought it'd be impossible
but i thought wrong.

as i watch you close your eyes at night
i whisper to myself
if only i can hold your hand
if only i can touch your face
if only i can have you here
then i'd be happy to just spend a quiet time with you

another night
i say goodnight
you say i love you
i say i do too
just a couple more months
yes a couple more of the long wait.

i want you
i need you
i miss you
i want to be beside you
because i love you

i wont leave you
no, i wont forsake you
i wont cheat on you
no, i cant lie to you
because i can and i will love you always and forever

even if forever does not exist
nothings impossible because i can
i know i can be here for you
i want to be here for you
even if you say i can't, i know i can

i love you beyond reasonable doubt
i know, because i still love you
i love you more than ever
im falling inlove over and over again
because i know i can

i wish to hold you on this special day
i know i can but now's not yet that time
but when the time comes that i can
i'll cherish every moment i have with you

hold unto me
never leave me
lets be with each other
as long as we can still feel this love
and i know it wont go away, because i can

i can love you more than what you felt before
i may utter it a few times
but i know i can show it more than i speak it
how?, by being here because thats all i can do. i love you dane my one and only.~happy monthsary

uspide down

when does something beautiful turn into something grotesque
when does something so meaningful become nonsense
its when it turns upside down....

its when someone leaves you
then the scar remains
and he tries to come back and bring it all back together
yes he was successful because he puts meaning to everything
then he leaves again then the scar just begins to open up all over
he asks whats your resolve
i ask what's his'


its when someone taught you how to love
then he takes his love away from you

its when someone holds you up high
then he drops you anytime

its when you've been wishing he's home
then he turns his back and all your hopes are gone

its when you try and shut yourself up but all u can do is think
thinking what if he didnt leave me

its when all you want to do is hold his hand when he comes home
but then he never will be home

its when you care about him so much
then he tells you that he doesnt feel the same for you

its when you cry on the side of the pillow
wishing he takes those words back

this is when everything on top
twists itself and put you on the bottom
this is when everything is nothing
and when your heart is nowhere to be found anymore
because you've given your best and your all to that one person
to the only person who you thought wont leave you anymore.